Hi, thanks for your reply. There is nothing to forgive Dr. I recognise the point you were trying to make and believe it or not, I do have 'lucid' moments where I think to myself, 'what the hell are you worrying about'? I guess these bad thoughts kick in during low periods where I am depressed and start imagining all manner of bad things that could happen. I am going to take advantage of whatever help there is out there and try to get past these problems. I have had yourself and a nurse at the GUM clinic I attended tell me my fears over the needle used during the test are completely without foundation and nothing could go wrong. I am determined to confront these issues though because I recognise that I am hurting myself and those around me with the way I am.
Therefore, there is nothing wrong with your reply and nothing to forgive. I probably needed a kick up the backside to take action and seek help.
Best regards, Stuart M