I have posted twice before, and seen Dr.Sean in person. I have health anxiety and believe I am ok, but cannot stop worrying. Guess I need reassurance.
I had unprotected oral sex and then protected sex with a transexual escort about 10 months ago. This was followed by a range of scary symptoms and a irregularities with blood work (liver). Tested negative at 11 weeks DUO test among other tests before that.
About 8 weeks ago I met another tranny and had only oral sex, unprotected.
At 4 weeks post this second incident I had a negative DUO test, then told to move on with life. Fair enough, no real risk.
However my concern relates to the first 'woman.' THe other night I was aroused and messaged the first one whether she wanted to meet up. She replies, "I have HIV, so do you." I quickly phoned her and quizzed her and she said she only said that because I was pestering her for 10 months asking if she was infected because I felt ill....I admit to doing this. She said she did not have HIV and that she never wanted to hear from he again. Freak...stalker etc.
Since I saw those words I am unable to relax again and have slumped into health anxiety levels again.
Please could you advise me on what to do....feel like I could tip over the edge once again..
No, you're not going mad but you obsessing a little about all of this.
Obviously not a nice thing for her to do but you seem to understand that you have been a nuisance to her and one effective way to terminate you pestering her is to deliver the message you've been pestering her about.
You don't have HIV - we've discussed this. You do not have it.
Leave the woman alone and leave your self alone also - stop worrying about it.
I just want one more follow up point. I figure I am allowed as much before you close the thread and call me mental. I do suffer from anxiety etc, so I am aware of how irrational I am about to sound.
2 weeks ago I hooked up with a girl. Involved deep kissing, then fingering, and she wanked me off a bit. We were drunk and I am abundantly sure that was the extent.
2 weeks later she sent me a text asking what we actually did, and was it pretty much all kissing. I said yes, why do you want to know. She replied she was so drunk and could not remember.
This is what follows- I believe I have made her ill and she wants to know what we did for the purposes of STI transmission, I sent her a nice text trying to see if she was ok- i.e. how u been etc, she has not replied to this text nor been in touch with me since quierying what we got up to....
I am now paranoid that I have made her ill.
One final word of advice or if you deem these events suspicious let me know,
I would stop having random sexual encounters with people until you can cope with the anguish it produces in you. There is no reason at all to suppose you have made her ill. She, like you, probably regrets the drunken episode but can't quite recall what happened. The leap to making her ill is rather large.
Going mad?
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